Beginning again

Its been quite a while since I thought about, felt along with and wrote anything worthy of note down. Ironically I intend to begin again at a time when I am under a lot of pressure from a variety of directions. Maybe this is as good a time as any to re-connect with my Cheng Hsin studies and to share something.

I went back to Cheng Hsin class last week, each time I go people are shocked as it is months between visits. I have been happy to see that missing so much time doesnt necessarily mean that I have lost all relaxation, skill or ability. It seems like everything I have gained has been mine to keep. On the other hand I get a strong feeling that I have been doing myself an injustice and that there is a lot more I could have done. I couldnt go this week but visited a different T'ai Chi class with a friend instead. I always find this useful even when there is no comparison, on practicing an exercise with a stranger - a push thing, I was pleased that he felt me get into his feet.

It is sometimes more useful to try and follow someone else's instructions and try to practice falling into my feet, knee with toe, into heel etc without actually being told to do these things. Certainly it is interesting to watch people around me with poor body being and compare with them. Its almost the same as when I pick up a book - such as Zen Body Being, that I havent read in months, and I find myself making sense, new sense of parts of it. Maybe breaks are important, maybe its good to begin again.